Envy
What starts to pop in our minds when we heard/read the word: envy? I always think about green, and jealousy. Big jealousy. With crumpled face, bare teeth that almost come up from the mouth, and even worst I also think about people with knife behind their back. It's not that extreme tho :P
I hate the word envy. I sometimes say "I envy you" but I didn't really mean to say that because it's just not me. I know someone who envies me. Haha it may sound stupid but I really do know who that person is. Envy of my stuff, what I have been through, what I got from my parents, okay you know what? If you envy me, you're a total failure. So what if I got fancy stuffs? You can get what you want too. The difference is just I got it now, you'll have it later. Sometimes you get what I can't have tho, but I have no envy to you personally. Feelings that come up to my heart when you envy me are...... sad, gloomy, hurt, guilty, but I am never mad at you, ever, for being envious all the time. I'm not saying this because I'm just being nice or what so ever, I just realize that you and me are total incontrast. I think what you did these past months are pathetic. You make your self a loser (loser loser double loser what ever, as if got the picture d'oh).
I wish that you erase your envious heart, it is really not great at all. Just think about it logically, why can't people get better things than you? Get a real life friend, you know what to do.
Hugs and kisses from Coco
Audrey
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